Kristin Anne Lawrence

HAPPY NEW DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE AND MISS U!!!


Kristin Anne Lawrence
December 15,1998
stillborn
my baby girl
Greenacres, Florida
she has a younger 1/2 brother (trace)
Kristin passed away inside my belly a day before her due date (placenta abrotion ).


TO ALL THAT HAVE LITE A CANDLE,AND WHO WILL. I WANT TO THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. EVEN THOW I HAVE MADE THIS SITE FOR MY BABY, IT IS HARD STILL AFTER ALMOST 10 YEARS, TO COME HERE, SO I WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU FOR THE CANDLES, THEY MEAN ALOT TO ME AND I AM SURE TO KRISTIN TO, SO THANK YOU ALL
LOVE, THERESA ( MOM TO KRISTIN )




Thank you for you time and stoping by to look at my BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, baby girl.!!!!!!!!!



My baby girl Kristin, How I miss you so much. You past away the day before your due date to placenta abrotion, it was not fair. I was at the hospital, and on the moniter and your heartbeat was going real slow so fast, and grandma had to go get a nurse, my Dr said he was right behind us when we left his office ( he sent us to the hospital ) he was so late. I am so sorry that someone drop the ball on you and I. I know you are safe and sound and you have so many loved one's up there. You have cousin that are young also, your great grandma and grandpa's are up there. I know if you are with your great grandma Peggy she is telling you some story's, ( she was great ). Your great grandma picked your plot and casket for you, and I know she did great, mom was in the hospital when we had to do all the stuff for you, and your grandma did not leave me. You are missed and so loved in so many ways and from so many people.
I am sorry!!!!!
I LOVE YOU MY PRINECSS.
ALL MY LOVE angel
love mommy

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A GRANDMOTHER POEM
(for Cynthia Lawrence )
(Thanks mom for everthing )

I have a little Grandaugher, who means the world to me
She's living with the Angels and is as special as can be
And even though she's up there, playing in the clouds
She's still my precious Grandaughter and I am so very proud
Her picture takes pride of place on my living room wall
Ready to be admired by all who come to call
I know I can not hold her, or bounce her on my knee
But only have to close my eyes, her little face to see
I never will stop missing her and wishing she were here
But sometimes I feel, indeed I know that she is very near
So play happily little Grandaugher, you will never be forgot
I love you so and always will, though I miss you such a lot .

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THE EMPTY WOMB

I CARRIED YOU SO LOVINGLY
WITH MY GENTLE WOMB
AND LITTLE DID I REALIZE
YOUR LIFE WOULD END TOO SOON

I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO SAY
" I LOVE YU LITTLE ONE "
BEFORE I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS
YOUR LIFE ON EARTH WAS DONE

THE GRIEF IS INDESCRIBABLE
TO LOSE A CHILD THIS WAY
ALL THE MANY HOPES AND DREAMS
JUST VANISHED ON THAT DAY

I KNOW I'LL SEE THE SUN SHINE BRIGHT
UPON MY BABIES FACE
WHEN I FINALLY GET TO HEAVEN
MY PAIN WILL BE ERASED
WE'LL SOAR THE SKIES TOGETHER
AS ANGELS TWO BY TWO
WE'LL HAVE A SWEET RENUNION
A MOTHERS DREAM COME TRUE
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AN ANGEL NEVER DIES

Don't let them say I wasn't born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I've loved you from the start.
Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone,
This world was worthy not of me,
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was "meant to be
God doesn't make mistakes,"
But that won't soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
Another child you'll bear,
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there
There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And you'll understand.
Although I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never "was"
An angel never dies.

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My Mom is a Survivor

My mom is a survivor,
Or so I have heard it said.
But I can hear her crying
When all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night
And go to hold her hand.
She doesn’t know I’m with her
To help her understand.
But like the sands upon the beach
That never wash away…..
I watch over my surviving mom,
Who thinks of me each day.
She wares a smile for others……
A smile of disguise .
But through heaven’s open door
I see tears flowing from her eyes
My mom tries to cope with my death
To keep my memory alive.
But to anyone who knows her
Knows it’s her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom
Through heaven’s open door….
I try to tell her
Angels protect me forevermore.
I know that doesn’t help her….
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, talk to her….
And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says….
No matter what she feels.
My surviving mom has a broken heart
That time won’t ever heal.
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CAN I STILL BE A MOTHER

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mummy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mum who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mummy set me free.

I miss my Mummy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mum
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MY SPECIAL ANGEL

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her
but where God wanted her to be.

She was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.

She touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send her all my love.
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To my ANGEL

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you

And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;

A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.

If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,

But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair.
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NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL MOMMY

"Beautiful Mommies!"

Before I was a Mom I never learned the words to a lullaby.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been
puked on.
Pooped on.
Drooled on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple little grin.
I never sat up for hours watching a baby sleep.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
I had never known the warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.
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